Well it's been a few days on the new meds, I see a difference, but that's
probably the placebo effect of having done something. This is so far
from my first rodeo, I even have the non-physiological foo mapped out. Work
week was...goofy. Office moving around was a pain. Got a ping today that
one of the dev boxes we hid in a network closet wasn't responding. So I
drove up to the office to fix it. (I'd just finished the movie I was
watching, so it worked out well. Needed some arguing, and some labeling
and cable mishmashing. Came back home after that.
As I said today would have been Dad's 95th spawning day. So when I wasn't
working on cleaning out the closet in prep for moving, or driving to work,
I've been watching movies I remember watching with Dad. 'In the Name of
the Rose', 'Hunt for Red October' and now, 1 Million Years B.C. (aka
Raquel Welch in a fur bikini). It's been fun, not many sad thoughts. Didn't
get as much moving labor done as I wanted, but I found multiple boxes of
Mom stuff and that took some of the wind out of my sails. I decided
to just keep it boxed up, move it to the new place, then I'll work
on sorting through it. Or not.
Not much else, I don't think I've mentioned it, but I've been using DuoLingo
the last 3 months to actually study Latin. I know a lot of words, but
I have little to know idea on grammar or structure. Sadly, I can't say I'm
much better at it, but it's fun to try. Today, kind of on a whim I fired
up Welsh, since I keep running into Celts in my reading. A lot more material,
since Welsh is a living language, and I'm better than listening/saying
the basic words than I am at Latin. (seriously, I rather just read it). So
we'll see. I don't think I'll ever be more than a how to ask nicely for the
restroom, and sorry I don't speak $language, do you speak English ? But
who knows, maybe something will click. And I'm having fun.
31 days til I get the keys to the new place. I need to get services moved
over, and I need to figure out some other new place stuff. As well as
finish packing/organizing. Holiday BS is pretty much being treated as just
BS, I really ain't feeling it this year. Oh well, a little over two weeks
and it's done. Then moving, then Cthulhu knows. Right now it's still day
by day. Which is about all I can count on. Night all.
Monthly Archives: December 2019
Vulpine’s Brain Chemistry: an update
Today was a visit with my pshrink (psychiatrist if you're new to my way of
writing). Standard 6 month med review. 6 months ago my biggest stressor
was my low platelet count and the new office being kind of meh. Needless
to say, my current stressors are much higher.
So I went in, saw my doc, told him the details, both what's happened lately and the high anxiety and lows of depression. So we're upping my anxiety med 'allowance', I normally limit myself to one of my acute anxiety meds a day, now I'm allowed two, with an increase on my prescription. I'm also adding Wellbutrin to my cocktail. Different kind of antidepressant that I haven't been on before, it affects a different set of neurotransmitters so it should change up the chemistry some. Side effects are mostly the same as every other antidepressant I've been on, except instead of a sedative affect, it might make me a bit jittery (thus I take it first thing in the AM). Too late in the day to take the first dose, so we try tomorrow. Then it's try to keep track of things/moods/etc, aka getting back to offline journaling. (or online, easily searchable journaling).
The migration that was scheduled for this weekend is pushed back to the end of the month. So that gives me two weeks to beat Atlassian into submission. Also gives me time to get used to this new med, and cope with moving and sadness. (Saturday would be Dad's 95th spawning day). So yeah, the end of the year should be...interesting. Let you know how it goes.
So I went in, saw my doc, told him the details, both what's happened lately and the high anxiety and lows of depression. So we're upping my anxiety med 'allowance', I normally limit myself to one of my acute anxiety meds a day, now I'm allowed two, with an increase on my prescription. I'm also adding Wellbutrin to my cocktail. Different kind of antidepressant that I haven't been on before, it affects a different set of neurotransmitters so it should change up the chemistry some. Side effects are mostly the same as every other antidepressant I've been on, except instead of a sedative affect, it might make me a bit jittery (thus I take it first thing in the AM). Too late in the day to take the first dose, so we try tomorrow. Then it's try to keep track of things/moods/etc, aka getting back to offline journaling. (or online, easily searchable journaling).
The migration that was scheduled for this weekend is pushed back to the end of the month. So that gives me two weeks to beat Atlassian into submission. Also gives me time to get used to this new med, and cope with moving and sadness. (Saturday would be Dad's 95th spawning day). So yeah, the end of the year should be...interesting. Let you know how it goes.